The Tales We All Must Tell

Public confessions of misdeeds against nature can inspire environmental awareness, commitment, and action.

Robert Louis Chianese

I just couldn’t watch all that waste. Nice people out for a day of fishing kept bringing in more and more fish they didn’t need just to feel they had a good day. Some fishermen gave away extras to others so they could go on and hook and fight and reel in more without going over limits.As I crossed the channel from Ventura, California, to Channel Islands National Park on a misty morning a year ago, I recognized that our ex­cursion boat captain had once been my fishing boat captain on the same waters. I approached him and asked whether he had given up fishing. He said he had, and explained why:

I understand that, I said. I did that too, when we had a good run. I would keep the biggest ones and give smaller ones away. That was rather sneaky. The captain continued:

I didn’t mind that so much, but when in certain seasons we came into a run of jumbo squid, the huge white Humboldts, then the waste was too much. Few people took them home, so when it was over, the crew and I were left with a boat­load of them covering the whole deck, sometimes two deep, with not one person taking even one home. Every day this happened I tried to shut the fishing down, but the thrill was too great. The sport was lost in wasting these animals.

I kept it up for a while, but then I saw we were taking too many of all fishes. Fewer and fewer were full-size, even though we stayed

Much of the modern environmental movement may rest on the words of transformed offenders.

within limits. I made sure of that. Still, I had had it, those boatloads of jumbo squid. I stopped fishing.

What was most striking to me about the captain’s story was the way he de­cided to quit. Not because of a regula­tion. Not because of being lectured or shamed. He did it on his own, in a way that made perfect sense to me. Indeed, I had myself given up fishing for very similar reasons.

Far more often, though, we remain stuck in our behaviors, often complete­ly ignoring their consequences. Every day, we commit assaults against the environment, both large and small. I am not pointing fingers. I do it, too: I still eat meat, including fish; I bought a new hybrid but have an old truck for fun (a case of flash over efficiency); I walk for exercise, but could do er­rands that way too; and as a drought­conscious Californian I should empty every full drain bucket from our kitch­en sink outside on our plants, but I don’t—too lazy for such water-saving efficiency each time, I guess.

Collectively, these acts have profound consequences on a global scale. Scien­tists warn that we are already experi­encing some of the effects of human- induced global climate disturbance, such as melting glaciers, rising sea lev­els, and an increased frequency of ex­treme weather events. We are in our “sixth extinction” period on planet Earth, with the speed of extinctions 100 times faster than before modern hu­mans entered the picture. And yet we don’t see a public alarmed and motivat­ed to remedy the global catastrophe we are engineering. Do we need more sta­tistics, more fact-based warnings, more climate science, more news coverage?

I suggest we try a new tactic to inspire the public to take action: Make it person­al. Tire boat captain’s brief recital of what happened to him is a personal confes­sion. It moved me because of the teller’s transformation from gung-ho fisherman to sober environmentalist, all of it con­veyed in his tone as much as through the story itself. He wasn’t preaching but telling a former customer what had changed him, and the brief rapport be­tween us indicated we understood each other. That was a closeness I didn’t antic­ipate, and I should have volunteered my own story of becoming disturbed about wasting our precious ocean resources.

Such stories have a way of drawing us in, tying us to the specifics of the char­acter and the situation in a way that me­dia coverage of abuses against nature of­ten does not. Hearing stories of personal confessions of transgressions against nature can prompt others to reevaluate their relationship to the natural world, perhaps reflect on mindless damage that they may have caused it, and, in some cases, seek ways to atone for the act.

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Public confessions of transgressions against nature may inspire others to reflect on their own contributions to environmental issues. The humanities can demonstrate how to make these confessions personal and motiva­tional. Here, an 1866 illustration by Gustave Dore shows the Ancient Mariner in Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner” telling a wedding guest his harrowing tale of killing an albatross.

The Art and Power of Storytelling

The poet and writer can teach us how to make stories of environmental trans­gression personal and persuasive. Po­etry, literature, drama, and other disci­plines within the humanities are built around stories that produce immedi­ate emotional impacts. These art forms frame issues of life and death and ev­erything in between in personal terms. They place specific characters at the center of terrifying human conflicts and allow us to watch them twist, turn, and suffer the pains of avoiding their own collision with the conflict. A crisis often crushes the characters but can break them open to self-acceptance and wis­dom—for them and vicariously for us.

There is perhaps no better model for confessing an environmental abuse than Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s “The Rime of the Ancient Mar­iner.” Although a 200-year-old poem may seem like an un­likely place to find inspiration for a modern environmental movement, Coleridge’s tale is an excellent example of how to make a moving confession of an environmental misdeed.

This early romantic pe­riod poem from the famous volume Lyrical Ballads (1798) follows the life path of some­one who violates the natural world. The mariner’s ship­mates befriend an albatross, which they believe brings a wind that drives the ship out of the frigid Antarctic. The mariner shoots it with a crossbow, thoughtlessly. Then an ensuing intense heat and lack of rain afflict the crew, and they hang the albatross around the mariner’s neck, blaming his act for the stasis and high temperature. (To this day, an “albatross” re­mains a metaphor for a guilty transgression one cannot remove—a testament to the power this poem still carries centuries after it was written.)

The whole crew drops dead, so that the mariner is “Alone on a wide wide sea!” At night the isolated mariner notices luminescent “water- snakes” flashing colors, and becomes entranced by their beauty and blesses them, again “unaware.” Whereup­on the albatross falls from his neck into the sea and it rains buckets. We are only halfway through the poem, but we can look ahead to the conclu­sion and its succinct homiletic moral of radical biophilia that redeems the mariner: We need to love “all things both great and small” for our own health and survival.


The mariner spends the rest of his life as an itinerant confessor and manic recruiter for his vision of nature. We hear his tale as he retells it to an anon­ymous guest on the way to a wedding. The guest ultimately does not attend the wedding; he leaves stunned, con­templating what he has just heard from the madman storyteller. Appar­ently he needs time to recover before
he resumes his participation in society and its cultural traditions, such as mar­riage. He may not go off on an expedi­tion to save albatrosses, but he may ask himself if he loves all creatures great and small. Such is the effect of powerful stories of personal transgres­sion and transformation.



Many modern-day environmental writers have employed similar story­telling strategies to confess publicly their acts against the natural world. In the 1949 book A Sand County Alma­nac: And Sketches Here and There, which sold more than two million copies and helped establish the modern conser­vation movement, renowned ecologist Aldo Leopold described how he once “pumped lead” into a playful pack of wolves “with more excitement than ac­curacy,” and then came to a new ap­preciation of the importance of each in­terconnected creature in an ecosystem. In the 1991 book Second Nature, popu­lar journalist Michael Pollan described how he became obsessed with eradi­cating a woodchuck from his garden, which, he confesses, “put me in touch with a few of our darker attitudes to­ward nature: the way her intransigence can make us crazy, and how willing we are to poison her in the single-minded pursuit of some short-term objective.” By telling their stories, environmental writers have inspired others to reflect on their own transgressions. Indeed, much of the modern environmental movement may rest on the words of transformed offenders such as these.

The Blackfish Effect

Documentaries are powerful modern platforms for storytelling. These films have helped inspire the public to push for environmental regulations, includ­ing better protection of animals such as elephants and great apes. In one present-day iteration of Coleridge’s mythic investigation of humanity’s relation to nature, the documentary Blackfish (2013) captures the shift of consciousness of many SeaWorld trainers about the cruelty of confining killer whales to tanks and the dangers these whales can pose to the staff.

Scientist and environmental writer Aldo Leopold vividly described his own unnecessary kill­ing of wolves in his 1949 collection of essays, A Sand County Almanac. He used his confession to inspire others to recognize the value of each creature in an ecosystem.
The Aldo Leopold Foundation, Oxford University Press


Much of the film centers on the kill­ing of Orca trainer Dawn Brancheau in 2010 by the whale Tilikum. SeaWorld announced the death as “an accident” resulting from Brancheau’s supposed mistake of allowing her ponytail to dangle in the water, which the whale used to drag her under during a perfor­mance. This account of the “accident” was exposed as a lie by trainer Linda Simons, who lost her job for going pub­lic with information about poor train­ing and dangerous whales at SeaWorld.

But it took several years and the per­sonal confessions in Blackfish to set the record straight (but the water park pub­licly contests some of the information in the movie, so controversy remains). Blackfish revealed the lingering self-im­posed silence of the trainers, who felt loyalty to the whales and wanted to protect them. Many trainers did not at first acknowledge that simply by train­ing and performing with the whales, they were committing their own trans- gressive acts. In the film, their realiza­tions of culpability finally get released through open, tear-filled, seemingly real-time confessions. The trainers also express anger at members of manage­ment who lied for so long after almost all the trainers had come clean about the real condition of the whales born, kept, and trained in captivity.

In a final turnabout that parallels the mariner’s story, SeaWorld will trans­form itself into a protector and conser­
vator of all marine life. It announced this year that it will phase out all orca shows over the next few years, and stop breeding the animals in captivity. In ad­dition, along with the Humane Society of the United States, SeaWorld pledges to “actively partner in efforts against the commercial killing of whales, seals, and other marine mammals, as well as end shark finning.” It also commits itself “to protect coral reefs and marine species that inhabit them….” If it fol­lows through on these commitments, SeaWorld will have a different tale to tell as it becomes a public voice for ocean creatures great and small.

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Documentaries are powerful platforms for confessing environmental transgressions. In Black- fish (2013), former SeaWorld trainers describe inhumane treatment of killer whales and come to terms with their own contributions to the whales’ suffering. Here, killer whales perform at SeaWorld San Diego’s Shamu Stadium.

Social Media Confessions

Social media are the newest platforms for storytelling and may be the most promising ones yet for inspiring envi­ronmental action through personal con­fessions. For one, they come with a mas­sive audience. According to a survey conducted by the Pew Research Center, as of January 2014,74 percent of Ameri­can adults with Internet access used so­cial networking sites. Social media also have a proven record of generating sup­port for a wide range of causes, from the political to the personal. And, im­portantly, social media have a long his­tory of encouraging public confessions. Tumblr has a “postcard confessions” feature that could be employed for envi­ronmental confessions. Facebook users have created many confessions pages; often such announcements are for social uses, such as admitting romantic crush­es, but similar pages could be created to post collections of ecological violations and their aftermaths.

We could also blog about our environ­mental missteps. I created a blog titled Eco-Confessions (http: / /ecoconfessions. where I invite all those interested in this subject to share their stories of environmental transgres­sions and realizations. My own confes­sion is the leadoff post:

In my boyhood I roamed the New Jersey woods next to our modest postwar suburb. The woods pro­vided every adventure in its re­maining forest, swamps, and creek. Some older boys fished, trapped, and hunted, while my pals and I explored the place as very uncon­scious “naturalists.” We brought specimens home in jars, boxes, and bags. And we threw stones, a favorite pastime, at lots of things.

One day I lobbed a large one at a blue jay and it landed square on its back, flattening and killing it. None of us rejoiced at that. It was a ter­rible violation and a warning about careless pursuits.

Then we built slingshots, strong ones out of plywood, with real Wham-O rubber bands and copper BBs for ammunition. I could have gone after birds, or easily penetrat­ed the shells of turtles sunning in the ponds, but I didn’t. The mem­ory of the squashed innocent blue jay kept my reckless animal-killing ardor in check. I take my shift of consciousness about respecting all things great and small from that early transgressive act and the re­morse I felt thereafter. I may be an environmentalist because of it.

The Mariner Approach

We, like Coleridge, need to find a confes­sional voice and share it in whatever me­dium is readily available, even if that is a face to face conversation—or a poem.

The former fishing boat captain who led my trip to the Channel Islands teach­es visitors about the importance of pro­tecting the animals he once overfished. “In some way, I am making up for all that taking and waste,” he told me. “If I can educate people on the rides out and back about the need to support this fishery by being careful to use what they might catch or to leave it all alone, let­ting it take its time to replenish, then perhaps I’ve made up a bit for too much waste.” But when I asked him whether he’s considered sharing his own story with visitors, he replied, “No I haven’t. They didn’t come for that.”

The need for environmental action is too pressing for us to wait any longer for an audience to come to us for our confessions. These stories are the miss­ing element in society’s disregard of the analysis and warnings of scientists, ethicists, and humanists alike about our biocidal mania. If we all reach out and share our stories using whichever plat­form works for each of us, we can learn from each other and usher in a new age of environmental awareness, concern, and action. The move from personal violation to personal responsibility and public discussion is the mariner’s story. It also should be our own.


Coleridge, S. T. 2005. “The Rime of the An­cient Mariner,” in Lyrical Ballads. New York, Routledge.

Kolbert, E. 2014. The Sixth Extinction: An Un­natural History. New York: Henry Holt and Company.

Leopold, A. 1949. A Sand County Almanac: And Sketches Here and There. New York: Oxford University Press.

Pollan, M. 1991. Second Nature: A Gardener’s Education. New York: Grove Press.

Sea World and the Humane Society of the Unit­ed States. 2016. Strengthening animal welfare and protecting oceans and marine animals, joint full-page statement of Sea World’s new mission. Los Angeles Times (March 31).